Thrid Stanza

My nephew died in the car I bought
So I'm under the belief it's partly my fault
Close my eyes and squeeze, try to block that thought
Place any burden on me, but please, not that lord
Time don't go back, it go forward
Can't run from the pain, go towards it
Some things can't be explained, what caused it?
Such a beautiful soul, so pure, shit
Gonna see you again, I'm sure of it
'til that time, little man I'm nauseous
Your girlfriend's pregnant, the lord's gift
Almost lost my faith, that restored it
It's like having your life restarted
Can't wait for your child's life, to be a part of it
So now I'm child-like, waiting for a gift
To return, when I lost you, I lost it
Lose one, let go to get one

The first part of the stanza is about the death of Jay-z nephew Colleek , who died in a car accident in a car that Jay-z bought him for a graduation present.

"So I'm under the belief it's partly my fault" Jay is saying that he feel bad that it happen and in some way it is he fault that it did happen.

"Some things can't be explained, what caused it?" Jay is saying no one know why it happen, shit just happens.

"Such a beautiful soul, so pure, shit Gonna see you again, I'm sure of it" Jay is saying that Colleek was a great kid and he is going to see him again( in Heaven).

"Your girlfriend's pregnant, the lord's gift" Jay is saying after Colleek died he was sad then he found out that his Colleek's girlfriend was pregnant. He says its the lords gift because he lost his nephew but in a way he will "still have part of him here. Almost lost my faith, that restored it It's like having your life restarted" Jay is saying he almost lost his faith in God but after finding out the news he regained it. By having his nephew's child it is like stilling having a piece of him here. "Can't wait for your child's life, to be a part of it So now I'm child-like, waiting for a gift" Jay is saying that he cant wait to have the kid that it just like he is having a baby himself. Jay dose not have any kids but he has a lot of nephews and nieces that he treats like his own. I think by saying all this Jay is getting a lot of his chest. He had a hard time dealing with the death and by rapping about it the accident it really helped him deal with the whole thing.

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• Is jay-z saying Beyonce lost him that he has moved on? And that he can't wait for her? And what do u think he means by that now he is a champion?

• I don't think Jay-z is saying he moved on. I think he is trying to say that he has to let her be her at this stage in her life. When two celebrities data they often has different schedules. Most celebrities have schedules that keep them away from their families. So two celebrities have an even harder time. By say he is a champion i think he is saying even thought the would song is about loosing he is still a winner, because he understand you cant win them all.

• Do you think he lost in faith that she would marry him, or that he always new they eventually would?

• I do think that Jay-z always knew that they would get married. He is not trying to say that they are broke up or anything like that. He is simple saying that because she is so focused on her work that they cant really be together like the were at one point in time.

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